As I begin to be more conscious about how media and pop culture and marketing affect our lives, I begin to think deeper about issues. I work two different jobs in retail, both jobs are pretty much as opposite from each other as can be, which is fine except for days when I am working at both jobs and need an outfit that can be worn to both when one job is casual and one is dressy. But I didn’t sit at the computer to talk about outfits that I wear to work, no matter how awesome they may or may not be. One of my jobs requires me to be a high pressure salesperson.
This makes me uncomfortable for the reason that I am learning the hard way that it is important to use money wisely. The implications of our financial decisions are huge, and they show the kind of person that we are. Until now my financial decisions have shown that I indulged in the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the pride of life more often than not. I had no self-control. It makes me feel guilty to try to convince people to buy things that they don’t necessarily need, and the bad part about it is that I’m good at it, which makes me feel even worse. I feel guilty when I try to convince people to apply for a credit card when I know the dangers people can get themselves into with credit cards. I’m not against credit cards by any means, but I am not against irresponsibility in spending, and the truth is that I’ve been irresponsible and I feel like I’m trying to influence other people to be irresponsible.
The problem is that my paycheck relies on how many people I can sucker into buying things. I realize that people can make their own choices, but I think it’s highly possible that I am a source of temptation sometimes for those already struggling with their finances by trying to sell them another credit product, by trying to convince them that they need to purchase such and such an outfit, that doing so will make them happier. I struggle with my conscience a lot at that particular job, I wonder if I am really causing people to sin, or at least egging them on.
Sometimes I think money and our use of it can be idolatry, depending on the decisions we make on how to spend it. Until now, with my personal finances, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the pride of life have won out, making money an idol. Now that I am aiming for discipline and self-control in my finances and I reap the consequences of my own actions, I think about the impact of my job and what it causes me to encourage others to do, and I wonder if it’s even right. I don’t think it’s wrong to sell someone something, particularly something that they need, but when I am trying to convince someone to buy something because I need to sell x amount of dollars worth of merchandise in order to keep my job, I think that’s kind of screwed. But then again, I’ve always been accused of thinking too deeply about stuff.