So, let us help each other by continuing to discuss important topics, and let us do so without demonizing everyone else, even those who have sinned against us. And I need to work on that goal more than anyone.
Although it’s not how I planned my life, God has been there, and he’s been watching out for me, often in ways I haven’t recognized until later. This time last year when I was on my knees crying, begging God to give me a way out of my situation, and working towards that goal, God answered that prayer, but the answer was so terrible and horrific that I didn’t recognize that it was his answer until months later. I lost everything valuable to me in one horrible weekend and had to work to get it back. I’ve learned a lot about what is important in life. I’ve walked alongside others as they’ve suffered some of the same things as I have, and I hope that God can use me in the future as a tool to channel his compassion to others.
So with that said, I’m going to be blogging through the lectionary, I know that Rachel Held Evans is blogging through it also and she has a great piece up this week for the coming Sunday. Other good sources for meditations on the Revised Common Lectionary (which is what I will be using here) are the “Keeping Holy Time” books edited by Douglas E. Wingeier and Sojourners magazine’s feature called “Living the Word” where they also discuss each week’s readings. I am hoping that this study will be profitable not only for me but maybe for others who read here. It’s a new journey for me and I already like what I have studied so far. I need to keep my mind engaged, I tend to see God in the intellectual but also the spiritual, so I’m hoping this is a good fit for me.
I made an ugly face at the Walmart greeter because he said something really stupid to me and I was annoyed, even though I know he’s disabled. I have yelled at my children even though I’m trying to use positive parenting techniques. I’ve been rude to people who were trying to help me or whose company had caused a problem for me and I was being ugly to them. I’ve ignored people I probably should have talked to. I’ve focused on all the hurts and wrongs that have been committed against me, accusing others of hypocrisy, when the biggest hypocrite is me.