I knew I was craving the Eucharist and Liturgy long before I ever set foot in the Episcopal Church. Even in my time exploring witchcraft, I wanted to buy a chalice so that I could take communion at home on my own because my church only did it every quarter and I knew I needed it more than that. But I had no idea why I needed it, at that point in time I had no idea that the bread was the body of Christ and that the wine was the blood. I had been taught to eschew that belief, but I’ve had experiences that have made me realize how important communion is and how special it is and what a gift it is.
I craved ashes on Ash Wednesday but knew of nowhere to go and get them, so I did without and was very sad about it. I started observing lent two years ago because I felt that I needed to, even though I didn’t know a lot about that at the time either. I didn’t realize I was wanting deep inside of me to observe the church year and follow the liturgical calendar. I didn’t know I could crave something so deeply that I didn’t know a lot about. I mean I’ve taken communion my whole life and never knew how powerful it was.
Sara Miles walked into an Episcopal Church one day and took communion for no real reason except she felt compelled to, and her life was changed when she realized, as she put it, that she had put Jesus in her mouth and eaten him. After that realization, there was no way she couldn’t be changed, for Jesus had been in her mouth and it was spiritual food. She documents that journey in her book “Take This Bread”. A few weeks ago a friend of mine going through a tough situation and I were talking about how our faith was being stretched to the limit and we weren’t sure it could survive. And she told me she craved communion because she knew it was spiritual food, and so she came to church with me and she took communion. Jesus said that he was the bread of life but I had never taken that literally.
Me, my friend, Sara Miles, we all craved communion but didn’t really realize it at the time. Taking communion every week has changed me as I’m partaking of spiritual food that God has given to the church. The Eucharist is important, because not only do we remember the death, burial and resurrection of Christ, but we partake of his body and blood and are given spiritual food, sustenance with which to go out into the world as people who have communed with Jesus and been changed through the experience.