Coming Out

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There are so many things that I appreciate about the Episcopal Church that it would be hard to mention them all in one article. There are so many reasons that I came to the Episcopal Church also, and one of those is one I’ve not talked about on here yet. For me, the acceptance of the Episcopal Church to gay, lesbian and bisexual people was a huge deal. It meant that I, as a bisexual woman, am treated with equality and respect despite my sexuality because my sexuality isn’t an issue to the church. I feel like I can finally relax enough to really search for God now that I’m in a church that treats me and people like me with dignity and respect.

Not everyone in the Episcopal Church is welcoming to LGB people but the church as a whole is welcoming. Not only that but they don’t see my sexuality as a problem that needs to be changed. The Episcopal Church as a whole recognizes that when God created me, God created me bisexual for God’s glory. I’m made in God’s image like everybody else and God is both male and female. God is fine with me being in a relationship with a man, or a woman, or with nobody, and right now I’m pretty damn happy not being in a relationship.

I like that I can go to church and no longer have to hide a huge part of who I am, who I was made to be. For me it’s been an awful long journey into accepting myself because I couldn’t seek a church that accepted me when I couldn’t accept myself. It’s horrible growing up knowing that you are different but that knowing your church, your friends, your family, think you are an abomination. I know why a lot of LGB teens commit suicide, I attempted for the some of the same reasons and many others. I couldn’t understand how I grew up being told that God made me special just to find out that it only applied if I were heterosexual. Seeing as I wasn’t heterosexual, I was an abomination.

I tried to change who I was, and that didn’t work it just made me more suicidal. It’s been a very long journey to get to where I can accept myself and even then I didn’t start really studying the issue out until I realized that if one of my kids were LGB, I wouldn’t know what to do even though I’d love and accept them. I’m so thankful that I can now stop worrying about being an abomination to God through my very being alive and instead relax and come to know God better. Knowing that God truly does love me and wants the best for me is something amazing, and something that I never knew until I accepted the fact that I was bisexual and that was not a sin, it was who I am. It’s a shame that I had to wait until I was almost 30 before I knew this.

Disclaimer: My blog posts are my own thoughts. I am not speaking on behalf of the Episcopal Church and anything I say are my own perceptions and are liable to be wrong at times. Nothing I say here is endorsed by the Episcopal Church as a whole or Christ Episcopal Church. I speak for myself and myself only.

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2 thoughts on “Coming Out

  1. Sometimes in our society it is really easier to be gay or lesbian than bisexual. This
    being true for bisexual church-goers in a frequently peculiar way. As a consequence,
    a church can make things pleasant or not so.
    I am happy for Katy-anne that she has found such a loving and nurturing place
    to worship God. May this remain so.
    God bless.

  2. Yes you are right about it can be harder because both “sides” don’t think bisexuality is legitimate, either the heterosexual people or the gay and lesbian people.

    I guess what I appreciate the most is that my sexuality isn’t an “issue” to be handled.

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